A few weeks ago I turned 29 years old. I can remember turning 10 years old like it was yesterday because I had just entered my "teens" and now without even realizing it, I am in my last year of my twenties. Where does time go?? I will be 30 next year and I still feel the same amount of pressure to figure out where I'm going in this world as I did on the first day of college. The only difference now is I have a 4 year old son (well, almost 4) that I feel even more pressure to make sure I am guiding him in the right direction rather than where I'm guiding myself. And maybe that's where I have fallen short.
I know what everyone is thinking...not that anyone reads these blogs...but if they did, they're thinking, "Great, another blog post of her saying 'This time is different. This time I really am going to lose the weight.' "
Well dang-it, yes it is another one of those posts! And I'm going to keep creating these posts until the weight actually DOES come off. Because this blog is all I have to keep me accountable without pissing me off by someone yelling at me to do it. I can write my thoughts and ideas down and hit publish and that's that. If you know me at all you know I have never responded well to other people telling me I need to do something. For some reason my mind goes in the opposite direction and I will absolutely not do it until I feel good and ready to do it because it wasn't your idea it was mine. Yes, that's the spoiled brat in me. But hey, at least I'm big enough to admit it. And as I said before, I'm almost 30. So the likelihood of me ever changing is becoming slimmer and slimmer and is probably only going to get worse the older I get. Yes, I will be THAT old woman.
Here's the thing...I'm tired of not being able to do the simple things in life. For example, sitting on the floor. This involves all kinds of sitting, like sitting criss-cross apple sauce. Yes I know, I'm not 5 and what normal adult wants to sit like that anyway. But I do. I want to be able to sit in a chair and cross my legs. Instead, I sit in the chair with my legs apart because that's the only option I have. Like I said...the simple things. To my horror I found out this past December that my butt no longer fits as easily in stadium chairs as it used to. I went to a Thunder basketball game and sat there the entire time with the arm rests digging in to my hips and wishing that either the game would be over or someone would just put me out of my misery. I'm dreading the day I ever have to get on an airplane and I get handed an extender for the seat belt. Okay, I'm exaggerating a little with that one, but I know if I don't do something soon it will only be a matter of time before that becomes a reality.
So now you're asking yourselves what is she going to do now that she hasn't done and failed at before? There's no gimmicks this time. There's no AdvoCare cleansing and there's no diet. Since I'm being so brutally honest in this post today I might as well keep going. The exercising part is going to be simple to start with. I don't have a gym membership figured in to my budget so it will be just me walking and hopefully jogging every day. Food budget has also been tight so I will do what I can to get the proper amount of nutrition but it will make for cutting back my portions pretty easy! (Sorry, that was really depressing.) But let's be real here, produce at the grocery store is expensive. It's too easy to walk out of the store with only 5 or 6 items in your basket totaling to almost $100 or more. It's tough eating healthy when stores make food items so expensive!
So anyway, there it is. My short-term goal is to just lose the first 10lbs. I'm using My Fitness Pal to help me keep track of my exercising and food. I've always really like that app. I've recently discovered that there is a huge network of users that are really supportive so it will be fun connecting with other people who are going through a similar journey as myself.
Until next time...
